Blort!

So, I cut my hair again. Short. Very short. Shorter, in fact, than when I had 13 INCHES cut off to donate to cancer last March. According to my housemates, it's now once again "Blort" (ie. blond + short). I dunno. They find the word funny for some reason.

But the weird thing is, I'm not bothered by it. I mean, last year when I got my hair cut, I played with it for the whole rest of the day and spent weeks getting used to it. This time, I was frankly surprised when Wnd reacted to it not two hours after I'd had it cut.

And it's not because it's a kick-ass haircut, either. I mean, I like it, but it's not exactly a sexy goddess haircut. It's actually a little too close to my mum's type of haircut for my liking. But hey, it's what I asked for (I've always wanted to know what I'd look like with this haircut).

I'm thinking it's because of my breakup with my boyfriend. I mean, not the reason why I got the haircut -- while I can understand the whole "need to have a outer change to reflect the inner", that wasn't my motivation. Simply put, I got a haircut because I needed one. I just had them take a little more off than usual.

I think my breakup just kind of shook up my expectations. Having gone through one tremendous change in my life, other things just don't seem so big. Like when I gave up meat for Lent and thought I would fight it the whole time, only to find out I was doing pretty well without it. I mean, I had my meat-craving moments, but on the whole I was fine.

This new outlook means that I'm suddenly considering tons of things I wouldn't have before. I'll probably get new glasses in a little while (I really need to -- my ones right now are gross and yellowed), I'm going to the states for a conference in June, I'm planning to go on several other trips in the next year or so. I'm actually seriously considering doing ministry as a career... or maybe law ... or maybe taking a Masters in Creative Writing Program in B.C.

The world is open, inviting, and it seems I'm in a place in my life where I no longer fear change.

It's kind of weird, and kind of exciting.